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This has been a pretty bomb weekend. Filled with lots of fun stuff.
Friday was hanging with Lisa and Erin, then party and Bond with the boys. Which by the way, is FREAKING AWESOME! I want to go to more of those. I wasn’t tired or sore Saturday morning after going to bed at 3 and waking up at like noon, but for some reason my quads were all sore Sunday. That was semi-upsetting, yet it made me happy because it means I worked out! Yay! (: Then again, ya kinda have to be pushing it when you’re trying to run away from getting caught by the taggers haha.
I was kinda bummed out that I didn't get to stay with Erin and Lisa Saturday night, because I wanted to spend Halloween with them. “/ But I guess it’s okay because I had a lot of fun at Halloween Hunt with SCLT. Boy, those kids look up to me. It’s a great feeling, being needed and feeling loved by so many people. I’m that type of person. Love me and I’ll be happy. Then again, I’m happy when I make everyone around me happy, which can suck ALOT, because you can’t make everyone happy. Sucks being me, ha. :P So then I got to watch Friday the 13th, the remake, which was good (the parts I did watch) because I fell alseep during like the beginning. That intro is waaaay too long though. I seriously have the urge to go and watch ALL the Friday the 13th movies, and Scream, and Child’s Play, and Texas Chainsaw Massacre, and Exorcist, and Halloween, and Nightmare on Elm Street movies. I have all the Nightmare ones, but I need like… the rest of the other ones. Haha. That would seriously be a LONG movie marathon (:
Sunday was sleeping in time! Yeah! Haha. I was supposed to clean my room, but I didn’t. Oh well, that’s what today is for (not that I’m going to.) I slept, and then got picked up to go to church. Went, and had CORE bonding afterwards. It was great and entertaining and fun. I love those guys, they always make my day. We talked about issues in CORE, like the way we dress, the way we talk, the line between being too close to teens, just things that will make us stronger and a better team all together. Then we ate Korean BBQ, which was freaking DELICIOUS. Omg mmm. :D And we watched "A Conversation with God” which is based on a book, and it made me cry “/ Then we ate CANDY! Yummy. Then I helped clean up after it was over, and then went home. It was a pretty good day overall.
Today was a furlough day. I really haven’t done anything good today. I slept in until about 10. Told myself to clean my room, but I didn't. Talked on the phone. Watched my Restaurant City on FB (yeah, I’m lame.. suck it) haha. And then decided to drive around. Oh, how I love driving. I’m going to win that damn bet. Haha. Now I’m making sure that i WILL clean my damn room. I have to T.T haha. I want ice cream too. And McD’s. ): But I has no monies because I forgot about a check I wrote. Damnnn. Haha. Oh well, I guess it just means save save save. Yay!
I’ve totally forgotten about LJ, it’s been like almost three months since I’ve written on here, and so much has happened. Mm, I need to start writing on here again, but I really really really doubt I will, considering I say this every time. I know myself too well xD haha.
~KimLoftis
friday - SOAKcity. visited ryan and brandon (: but i missed lauren D: then the beach afterwards. im going to get skin cancer T.T
saturday - grad party. funfun. i felt like a kid again in the bouncehouse. haha.
talks with two girls. they were good. adventurous night with erin and a sleepover.
sunday - bed at 5am and woke up at 1pm. a goodnights sleep considering i had a looong weekend. church. and goodbye dinner.
monday - mass at the beach. 10 hours outside the house and alot of time in the sun. distractions are great. im going to get skin cancer though. T.T
tuesday - watched movies all day. played maple. did nothing really. relaxing was great.
wednesday - disneyland with the cousins and fambam. then sports night and basketball.
thursday - babysitted. watched movies all day. FeverPitch. PPP. Picture Perfect. EverAfter. Lots of chickflicks. I have no life -_-
i havent slept since about monday night. doubtful ill get sleep tonight. its kinda tiring XD
i need to find better ways to pass the time because 24 hours in a day is way to long for my liking.
i need to find a way to relax my mind, to stop thinking. so far it hasnt happened.
i got pills though. but i'm kinda scared to take them. i want real sleep. not forced D:
any good ideas to get to sleep?
mostly what i do on nights like this is play maplestory haha. I leveled about 8 times this week. xD
i havent been on it in so long, and suddenly I got the urge to play again. Its really lame.
plus there is so much new stuff. things have changed in three years.. it kinda sucks "/
or i watch movies or write and type nonsense like now. 2am-10am are the worst hours ever. T____T
so, back to maplestory/writing/talking? ha. i'm telling you. worst hours ever. haha :P
i have alot on my mind but too lazy to type it out. isn't it always the case?
~kimLoftis
- Music:here without you - 3 doors down
So, because I babysit, I spend the week from Tuesday to friday morning at my auntanduncle's house.
I have to take my little sister with me. (Katelyn) She's nine.
Therefore I babysit a ten, nine, and six year old.
They are pains in my ass. I love taking care of them, but they fight so much.
But something I realized is that my little sister is not a pain in the ass compared to them.
She is pretty well-behaved compared to the way I used to think she was. Maybe cuz she's growing up (:
But that's not my point of this post.
I want to talk about Krystal, my other sister. The soontobe 15 year old.
Now, SHE is a pain in the ass.
I think that being away almost all week has caused her to feel like she is an only child.
And therefore she has turned into a bigger brat. Her and Katelyn fight, they used to do it all the time anyway, but still.
They act like my two cousins. She thinks she's the boss of the little one. And it gets on my nerves.
Then she has this attitude with me. I think she hates me, I really do alot of the time.
Don't get me wrong, I love her to death. But she is seriously a spoiled brat.
She used to be the littlest and therefore turned into a brat.
But then Katelyn came along and I think she got jealous because her youngest-one spotlight got ripped from her.
Her jealousness i think makes her hate Katelyn, and then she fights with her and stuff T.T
I dont know what I should do with her, because I really do everything she wants.
i want her not to hate me so I do anything she asks and take care of her.
She pushes me away, and I really do feel like she doesnt appreciate me. Just another person to add to my list. "/
I love her and I care about her, but I hate when she pushes me away.
I'm hoping its just her "growing up" phase, because I remember when I was like that.
But I just really want her to stop being such a brat to me and to the little one.
When they fight I take whoever's side is right. But if I dont take Krystal's she gets pissed at me. And I hate that.
What is her goddang problem? What am I supposed to do?
Honestly, shes only horrible when she's in her little brat attitude mood, but idk when that is, because her mood changes so easily.
I have to watch everything I say or I might find myself in a position of being yelled at, so my question is:
Should I give her a talking to when she's a brat? or should i ignore her? or whatttt?
Being the oldest is too difficult for me D:
On the bright side, I think compared to alot of other families we get along really well.
I love my sister, she's like one of my best friends.
I can talk to her about anything, I can trust her with my secrets. And she can do the same.
Same with Katelyn.. not that she understands alot of things I'd want to talk about.
We are all so close to eachother. And sure we fight, and we argue about the stupidest thing XD
But the tension, I think, is just because her mood changes like the seasons. D:
And I dont know when I should just STOP talking.
mm. I cant stand people being upset with me, so I push it and ask "Why are you mad? ):" Which really really annoys her and makes her hate me.
Good thing is, these fights last two seconds haha.
She just got mad at me because I told her to stop bugging Katelyn. And now we're laughing about how I fell running up the stairs.
I think my family is crazy. T__________T
its lovely. I'm in my living room and on the computer. wowzers.
this is completely random and i have lots to say.
recap:
thursday - disneyland.
friday - iceskating.
saturday - lisas party.
sunday - mayhem fest. missed church. fun for my first concert hahah.
monday - boredness and cleaning. missed mass and muffins because i was so tired from the concert.
tuesday - chilling all day at the beach.
wednesday - babysitting. sisters birthday. harry potter movie.
thursday - dland pool and babysitting.
friday - dland pool and babysitting and coldstones.. mm birthday cake icecream :D
saturday - cleaned part of the backyard. landscaping is the new goal for the house this summer.
sunday (tomorrow) - movie? church, first time in like 2 weeks T.T
babysitting has been really great even though sometimes my cousins can drive me up the wall.
They constantly fight... one's ten and the other is six. just a;ldskfj. oh well, i have authority, its great (:
Plus I get paid like $20 a day for basically just watching the kids. and i get to play with them and do what i want. Its a great summer job. (:
i'm really excited for college. i need the change. i need the new. i need the experiences.
i'm not dorming this first year, but maybe the next? and i still dont know how i'm getting to school everyday considering i am not legal to drive.
need to figure that out later D:
the goal has been to keep myself as busy as possible.
I dont want it to be like the past summers where i sit at home all day and watch tv and stay on the computer.
so thats why i'm like never online for real. but then again, there is always texting. my phone is usually on me, not that i hear it sometimes.
i also think that this whole busy thing has made the summer go by faster, not that thats bad or anything because i'm anxious for college.
i still need to make more time for oxnerds. (: i'll be chilling with erin on monday so thats a start! :D
i'm scared for the oxnerds that are going away. i'm gonna miss them. i.e. lisa, curtin, etc. they'll need to visit.
then again, thats what the wonders of technology have done: made it easier to get in contact! yay!
stuff on my mind but too lazy to write. i'm watching scooby doo and iming and playing with the new lappy so maybe ill write later.
i need to figure out how to get all my old bookmarks and stuff from my old firefox on my old comp to here....
and i need to get used to vista. i finally learned how to turn off the stupid popups that were like "we need your permission to do this yaddayadda" annoying T___T
yay for graduation presents! :D
summer'09 dont fail me now (:
~kimLoftis
- Location:LIVING ROOM ha XD
jumble of emotions. sad. happy. mad. surprsized. scared. just ALOT.
emotions that have to do with events. people. things. memories. its driving me nuts.
I'm grounded. But not? Just got my phone and internet back today. so call and text me! goody! :D
My days have been interesting. Ive gone out to hangout with people. But not those i REALLY want to hangout with.
Its been like 2 days since I've seen my friends, and i miss them D:
I have this huge urge to hangout with a few people.
Its quite predictable but not?: lisa, erin, tucan, omar, jesus, taylor, jonathan, valerie, mitch, zacky, bryan, etc.
Yup. Ive been to disneyland, knotts, the block but not with the people i REALLY want to go with ):
I mean, churchies are cool and everything, and Ive had a blast... but you guys are my bestestfriends foreverrrr. 6years > 4months.
The majority of my activities have been churchy and family. And I dont think thats bad, I just really miss my oxnerds "/
Every monday at 8:30am = Mass and Muffins, where we get delicious breakfast after mass and fun hangout time (:
Every monday at 7pm = Disney movie night with mommy, daddy, krystal,katelyn, and me :D
Its cool because we go to the old disney theater and we watch the really old movies; last week was Fox in the Hound, and yesterday was the Black Cauldron. Next week is the Great Mouse Detective (: yay for reliving childhood memories haha.
Every wednesday at 6:30pm = Sports Night! Havent been to one yet, so we'll see what tomorrow has in store.
Every saturday is lots of cleaninngggg!
Every sunday at 4/5pm = Mass/CORE stuff
And of course the occassional grad party haha.
mmmm. make plans with me! D:
I want to shop so bad. CLOTHES! polos and khaki pants will not suffice in college. xD
I really want a job too. Disney hasn't gotten back to me yettt. And thats really where I want to work ):
Also I've realized that every summer I've ever had starts off with me being grounded, but they ALWAYS get better!
Mm i think I need to stop sulking then, right? :P
So what's new with me? Hmm.
I'm getting fatttt. I havent really exercised since track ended, other than that one day i went running with erin.
Ever summer I get fat, but my mindset always told me when school started I would lose it.
Ive had summer XC the past two years to lose it during the summer.
Then I had xc, soccer, and track during the year.. even though i get more muscle and fat during soccer :P
And before that I had PE (kinda) and track 10thgrade year.
But now what do i have?
My own motivations is what... versus Teachers and Coaches. My own < Someone else pushing me.
Mm I probably already gained the freshman 15 T_T. goddamn.
Well, I guess its time to get my motivation, dontcha think?
ALSO! a BIG but small new thing isssssss....
I got a kitty! :]]]]]
Well, my daddy got a kitty. It was his fathers day present!
His name is Ninja. It is NOT a stupid name, assholes. D:<
He is a siamese kitty! and he is 2 months ish.
He is sick right now with a cold ): But he's getting tons better.
He's adorable i loveeee him. Fuck being allergic! :D
I want him to get along with my dogs but I think I shall let them interact when 1) he's better, and 2) he's a little bigger.
Because then he will show them who's the boss ahaha!
There was alot on my mind when I started writing this, but I've stopped and started various times today. Dang.
Well eventually it will come back. And I might write it down.
- Mood:
blank.
The end of senior year was supposed to be the shit for me.
Well, its not the shit anymore... its just shit.
Really, just FML. my home, school, social life are poo.
Parents and teachers can really just suck my cock.
just FUCKKKK.
I feel like screaming, and crying, and throwing things.
When do things get better?
I just want things the way they used to be.
Then again, for every down there is an up... where's the up? "/
- Mood:
):
Get To Know Yourself Better
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you meet that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
Its really great. This week is AP testing and I'm really not stressing.
I dont get credit for Gov, English is all I have to worry about really and I know I'll pass, and i know Physics is going to suck but w/e.
I'm sad I didnt get to see Wolverine. I was all excited. W/e it gives me more time to watch Xmen3 (:
But I did have fun on Saturday at the senior dance practice, then JambaJuice, and then hangingout with sclt friends :D
Sunday I cleaned and got money from mommy for it. yayyyy.
Then church, and Clifs party! I had fun and made a new friend. His name is Matthew. aka sunshine! haha.
My best friend is Derek! haha. And I will definetly join Core next year. I'm pumped (:
I'm kinda sad that I dont get to go to Stubenville, because I didnt turn in my permission slip which was due yesterday "/
Oh well. Maybe next year! (:
I'm still really excited about this summer. ackkk it will be the shizzzzz :D
Hmm. I'm just hoping summer will come around faster. School is really mm :P
Whatever. By the end of next week my mind will be gone. xD
All I have to look forward to is Choir Show, Graduation, Banquet? maybe other stuff. idk.
Track Finals are this week, and I really want to PR on my 2mile. "/ I didnt PR at pre-lims last week. I was really bummed about it.
All my energy will be into getting faster than a 14:32. I'm going to kill myself for it. I need to do this for me (:
Hopefully Christiansen won't kick our butts. But I'm hoping for meaningless assignments so I can get my grade up xP
Oh well. Hahah.
mmm Life is good. <3
~kimmLoftis
- Mood:
thankful.
This week is going to be so chill because its just STAR testing (:
Only homework is physics, math but wittman can suck my cock, and i gotta study for the AP Gov test.
Next week is AP testing, and then my mind is completely checking outttt.
After that all we have to worry about is senior portfolios.
Ack, guys we are graduating! June 15th!! asl;dfkja;lsdkfj
And I am going to CSULB! I have to get into the Nursing program. Its competetive. I'm scared I wont get in though "/
Anyway, I have prom to look forward to, and partiessss, and chill time!
I'm getting confirmed May 13th! And it's my choice too. Not my parents.. Im being confirmed for me haha. (:
Also, I still want to go to the beach really badly. I just want to hangout in general.
And this week is all about Track.
I really want a 6:50ish mile. I'm going to kill myself at PreLims. I want a 3 minute 800m too. No 2mile so yay!
Navy vs White meet tomorrow. WEAR WHITE! come support us! xP
Everything is good now. Life is great. Cant wait to see what happens next. :D
I hope thats how you are all feeling right now! (((:
~kimmLoftis
- Mood: happy
- Music:gives you hell - AAR
Wow this week went super fast. But it was so much funnnnnnn. :D
Friday:
Ducks game with cameron, lisa, and jameson. I really like hockey. I want to see another game (:
It was a good game. It went into overtime and shootout. The only thing it was missing was a really good fight xP
I think hockey goalies are cute... but I think any sport has cute goalies. Soccer&hockey (;
Saturday:
I hung out with my cousins. I missed them. They are so cute. Babysitting!
Sunday:
Easter was cool. Got money in the eggs because my mom is chill like that.
Went to church and had to wear a dress T_T Dresses are really not my thing. I like pants and shorts xP
I was the usher for the middle aisle because David refused to do it xP But my now permanent number is 9! exciting.
In the process of ushering for the middle I made a retard of myself with the whole bowing thing.
Darnnn Jessica she was supposed to teach me! hahah i love her. (:
Monday:
Unbelievable amount of sleep. Lent was over so that made me extremely happy :D haha.
Jesus came over and brought me some delicious pizza which would be my breakfast.
I’ve decided he is the meanest most horrible person in the world (:
He had to leave, but he said he'd see me another day. What a liarrr xP
Babysitted for my sisters. Made them breakfast and played Harry Potter with them.
Our goal was to finish all the games this week, but I got to busy. We only passed 1,2,5 ):
Skylar came over. Hadn’t seen him in like 2 weeks. Got owned in soccer ):
Apparently Katelyn plays better than me -_- fuck my life. ahaha. Still have to kick his ass at GH.
He left at like
He likes my dad. I think everyone does. He's "funny." He's nice to everyone but me, wtf? "/
Didn’t get to go to In-N-Out with Taylor and Bryan and Omar so that made me sad ): Rain check?
Played tether ball with Katelyn. I love that girl <3 even if she's a pain in my ass.
Tuesday:
Went shopping for Hiking/Camping stuff. Got food and the backpack and supplies and everything!
I am all set for the Grand Canyonnnn. I am really excited for it!! :D
I was about to go to bed at 12am, and i was saying bye to Krys because I wouldn’t be able to in the morning...
and she reminded me I had to do my Letter to the Bishop and my Saint Report for confirmation. I was like FUCKKKK.
So I went to bed at like
The saint I chose was St. Joan of Arc. I didn’t know she was a saint (: She's fucking kick ass. Army, courageous, brilliant. it’s like DAMN!
My letter was really heart felt. I told the Bishop that I used consider myself agnostic, and this year I have really changed.
I really want to believe in God and in the beliefs of the church. I want to be those people without doubt.
I find it truly amazing that people can believe. I want that, and I know I’ve already started to change during these past 2 months.
It’s a good thing, I swear. :D
Wed – Friday Morning:
Hiking was the shit. It makes me so freaking excited for the GrandCanyon
Wednesday was fucking cold at night. But the cuddling to keep warm was great (:
Vienna Sausages are delicious, especially boiled. I still need to try Spam… hmm.
Boiled cans of corn are good. I need to buy way more different types of food for GrandCanyon.
Hikes are amazing fun. Rock climbing was the best though.
I’m sad I chipped my new white sunglasses though. But it’s okay because I bought more new ones!
I think pictures in cars and making fun of ugly faces and making strange noises can create really good memories (:
Lisa and I have got the hippie fad down haha. We make the headbands look good ;D
I love three hour “girl” talks in tents. Lisa and I can be girl’s hahah. Lisa Gray I love you <3
Mr. Stevens makes a good stew, but I’m hoping for more meat next time. And Mrs. Stevens makes good scrambled eggs! Delicious.
Damn I love my friends. I’m glad my first camping experience was amazingggg.
I was sad to have to go home. But it’s okay because the rest of the weekend was good.
Friday Night:
Girls Night Out with the SCLT girls (:
Got there late because Jesus came over and Krystal was not home.
That boy missed me. It makes me happy :D
And apparently I am beautiful… Bullcrapppp haha xP
Anyway got there and ate pizza. Kicking Kim, Jungle Jessica, Juicy Jenny, Bouncy Beth hahah
Theresa is deathly afraid of spiders haha.
Watched Mean Girls. Talked. Jelly Bean fight. I really love Stephanie and Beth.
Got to get closer to Jessica who I really really like. She’s freaking chill.
Jenny is my homie. She thinks everything I say is funny xP
The Missionary Position is in the form of a cross hahahaha. Ohh Kassy (:
Just overall funnn.
Saturday:
Ashlee’s 6th Birthday party!
Went to
Saw the Hannah Montana Movie, which I will admit was good. Haha.
I really want to learn the moves to the Hoedown Throwdown xP
Crap I am so lame!
Was at Dave&Busters for 4 hours. I kick ass at games :D
Sleepover was fun afterwards (:
GH is my bizatchhhh.
Sunday:
Cleaning. Because its SPRINGcleaning xP
Double Dare. SCLT.
I think I’ll be part of Core next year.. I’m still deciding haha.
I made a new best friend. His name is Derek. He’s funny as hell hahaha. For real! haha xP
So basically, the things I learned this week:
- I really love cuddling and hugs. Alot alot (:
- I use way too many smileys in texts, but apparently its cute xP
- Gerard doesn’t hate me! hahah
- When it’s cold you huddle for body warmth.
- Mr. Stevens is a weirdo.
- I absolutely adore cooking. <3
- Women need to train men.
- I have charisma! (:
- I kick ass at DoubleDare. Oreos are my bitch.
- I love oranges way too much. Deliciousness right there.
- I am excited for life. college. the present and future. Ahhh <3
All in all it was an amazing spring break. Cant wait to see what summer has in store :D
~kimmLoftis
Consider yourself lucky to read the nonsense that comes through my mind! xD
So I haven't written on here in a while. Its been like two months. Nothing really to say.
Just wish it was spring break already. argh ):
Sports Med test was cake. Math test = NOT fail :D.
Hamlet MCQ will probably suck. And I have to read the entire book tonight. Fuuuckkk.
Gov test will kick my ass for sure "/ and I havent started on the project xP
Anyone want to do all my work for me?
On a completely random thought which I got on the bus going home today:
I envy people who are naturally good at something.
And it bothers me when they don't pursue that thing they are good at.
It drives me nuts. Because its like what am I good at?.. nothing... at least to my knowledge ):
Oh well.
Other things that bother me/drive me crazy:
- Dirty fingernails
- Messy eyebrows
- People who touch me with dirty hands or hands that smell like food (like if you just ate pizza), especially when they touch my hair or face.
- People who type like "u" "r" "prlly" "sry" "tho"...
I'm pretty sure it doesn't take that much more effort, its only a couple letters people.
Though, "idk" and "cuz" its okay. God I'm weird -_-
- People who dont know the difference between "to" and "too", "then" and "than", "you're" and "your", "their" and "there" and "they're"... ackkk.
- People taking my stuff without asking. I will probably say yes to you anyway, but I cant stand people who just assume I'll say yes.
- When my undergarments dont match. My bras and underwear need to match xP
- Asking for hugs or giving me one when I dont want it. If I dont want to, dont push your luck.
- When someone covers my nose or mouth. I'm claustraphobicccc.
- People touching my temples.
- When I cant help someone. I feel useless. ):
I'll add to this when I think of some more. (:
Sometimes I think I'm OCD, and maybe ADD. Idk.
I need headphones. Because two people keep stealing mine D:<
I miss listening to music all the time! rawr.
I forgot how much I loved it, and how much it influences my mood :D
~kimmLoftis
- Mood:
busyyy - Music:Other Side - RHCP
1. One secret.
2. One compliment.
3. One non-compliment.
4. One love note, but it does not have to be for me.
5. Lyrics to a song.
6. How old you are.
7. How long we've been friends.
8. And a hint to who you are.
ill do a real post soon. swear.
im just too lazy right now ahaha.
plus i have to do hw which is completely lame. XD
~kimLoftis
